i just ran that. and it was fantastic. this is the farthest I have ran since the doc told me close to 7 weeks ago that I need to stop running. overall, the run went great, but the bad part is that my foot did bother me, actually I am icing while typing. bahhumbug... does this mean I shouldn't run my half? if you ask me, no... but im hard headed and stubborn... but it does make me nervous even if I know dancing on it this weekend made it sore.. along with the 4 miles i ran on sunday. soo... in 3 days I ran 10 miles... not too bad.
i am running 13.1 miles in 11 days. 11 DAYS. I feel like i have been waiting for this forever, oh wait.. i have.. i started training in DECEMBER. if only i hadn't been injured... i would have rocked the socks off of this race. but instead i'll be full of joy if i get myself across that finish line. woof. this sucks.
do you know that frozen corn (or peas) is THE BEST for icing body parts. im serious, i'll never use anything different.
i am washed by the water.
this is a tattoo i really want and something that is really close to my heart. Needtobreathe has a song called "washed by the water" and it is by far one of the best songs ever written, i almost choke up everytime i hear it. it is such a constant reminder that even when life freaking SUCKS and things are hard, we have Jesus. I mean, Jesus is a legit guy and he makes ALL things new, its just a matter of living through that brokenness and hurt. I think a lot of people run from this or look for a quick patch to cover it up but i don't feel like that is how Jesus would have wanted us to live. I think life is all about this hard stuff, living through it, suffering, hurting, crying, screaming, banging on that door with prayers just waiting. I think going through hard stuff makes us who we are and really affects and shapes our character. I will NEVER take back anything hard I've been though or will go through.
Why cant you just walk like Jesus walked? Love like he did?
My dear friend whom I just ADORE said something like this tonight, referring to someone we both know. This person is so quick to judge others and say somethign bad about them and it bothers us... and this is what Jenny wanted to say to her. and as she said that it really made me think and get really mad at myself for the times i have said not nice things about people. i HATE when I do that and I am really trying to change that about me, but it's hard. I want to walk like Jesus did, LOVE like he did.
but this is hard when you have friends around you who don't believe in you. they make comments about you and what you say instead of encouraging you and realizing you are truly trying to make a life style change. i gave this up for lent and it was hard, and I failed sometimes but i tried, a lot and to not get any credit for that really hurts. giving this up was far different than giving up sweets, or coffee or facebook, this is a real lifestyle change, I want to change myself, to be a better person. a little support and encouragement would be nice, but instead they focused on my flaws. woof.
so friends who believe in me when I say I am really stronger and he's going to hurt me this time, or when I catch myself and say sorry and you recognize it... thanks, you mean the world.
do you think that if you cry when you cant run that youre obsessed with it? because thats me and the fact that my foot hurts right now, makes me want to cry. have you ever had a bad run where you just can't get yourself going and your feet feel like bricks and you cant breathe and you feel like you could collapse? yea, me too... but does that make you seriously angry? ... it does me. i think I am obsessed with running.
Even when the rain falls,
even when the flood starts rising,
even when the storm comes,
YOU are washed by the water.
Even when the earth crumbles under my feet,
even when the ones I love turn around and crucify me,
I wont ever, ever let you down,
I wont fall, i wont fall.. as long as you're around me.
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